Early this morning I woke up with horrible pain in my hip. I slowly tried to get out of bed. When I put pressure on my leg it sent shooting pains in to my hip. It is even worse if I happen to twist or bend.
Will this ever end? I had such hopes with Remicade. I have tried so many other treatments. I think the only RA medicine my body hasn't been injected with is Orencia. I did feel halfway like a human being for a week after the steroid infusion. My reprieve is over.
Every day is a mystery as to which joints will be painful. What will I not be able to do each day? Will it be painful to try to walk? Will I be able to brush my hair or brush my teeth? Will I be able to get up if I sit down? Will I be able to hold my cup of coffee in my hands? Will I be able to turn the doorknob to leave my bedroom? Will I be able to shower today? Will I see a bright side to this existence? Will I ever be truly happy again?
Today has not started off well...
